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Wednesday, May 28, 2014

signs


One fine evening... While sitting alone, aloof... Far away from chaos... 

I stopped one of the clouds passing by, to enquire about my love... 

I requested them to show him to me... If not him, at least a few of his 
striking traits... So that I my eyes don't miss him amidst thousands of 
people ... 

That cloud moved randomly and for a moment... It so appeared that it 
whispered some thing to every cloud that came in its way... 

A sudden calmness appeared in the sky ... Something assured me... They 
wanted to reveal something... They didn't draw his features ... Maybe 
they had already promised him that they wouldn't reveal anything to me 
about him... 

But the cloud that I had stopped seemed to have soft corner towards me 
... 

They finally concluded to show me his nature. I thanked them and made 
myself comfortable... I had decided not to blink... I didn't want to 
miss a thing about him ... 

At first, the sky appeared calm and serene ... It looked as if the sky 
had worn a blue mask ... The first sign that he would be pleasant 
person. 

Then a slight drizzle started ... I always enjoyed getting wet 
slowly... Very slowly... in those small tiny tiny drops... The second 
sign about how I would feel when he smiles... 

Then that slight drizzle turned to a heavy downpour... The third sign 
that he would be firm in his attitude ... 

Amidst these, there were loud sounds of thunderbolts and a few blinding 
lightnings... The fourth sign about how his anger would be and how it 
would last for a fraction of a second . .. 

And then at the end, they left a rainbow behind to assure me ... That I 
would have a colorful life ahead with him...

First look

From where could I start !
whether the day when I saw
a walking enigma throuh my way
or from the moment when glances
captured & locked up inside 
all along my life, I 've heard
name of yours close to my heart
I felt your presence strongly
where ever I go & what ever I do
so many times i thought its an illusion
its not so, b'coz I've seen u in me
I wonder ,why I 've n't observed before
but its fact,u 've occupied my mind and heart

written for my brother

Dear brother

  Turn towards me ..,
  Listen to my words carefully
  U know, hoe precious u r for me,
  So , I do n't want to lose u...
  For any wrong things...
  Remember these lines 
  I'll be there for u
  in every ups and downs  of ur life
  I want to be with u in
  every turn of ur life...

waiting



It sounds like thunder...
haunting nights without you
sweeps away my sleep
kept watching through window
please come to me...!

awaiting dreams of you
afraid of being  in the dreams
because might you come to me
i'll be in the dreams only
I do n't want to miss u in either in dreams 
            or in my real life...
what to do ?what to do ? what to do ?

nireeksana

priyaa 
      kusalame kadaa? mari nenaa...
      nee ooha nu naa madi nimpukoni
      nee roopu naa kanupapala meduluthunte
      nee chiru darahasaanni naa pedavipy nilapi  
      nee tholichoopu sparsa nanu ukkiri bikkiri
                                          chesthunte
      nee thalapulatho viraha vedanalo
      nee raakaki eduruchoosthu...

      nesthammaa, emani thelupanu?
      samvathsaraalu dorluthunnaayi
      kshanam gadavadam ledaanaa
      ninnu thalavani ghadiya ledavaa...

      nenevaru thelusaa ? 
      udaya bhaanuni nunu vechani kiranaalu
      ninnu thakinappudainaa gurthukuraledaa ?
      ninnu smarinchani kshanam lede...
      santhoshamaina dukhamainaa modata nee thalape
      kalalonaina nini chosthanani nidurapothe 
      kanipinchave ,kala kallenani nijam kadanaa
      
      asthaminche suryudu nannu choosi digulugaa
      ee roju koodaa gadachinadaa inkanu raaledaa    
  
      repati roju vasthadani veedkolu ivvagaa        
                                      
      raathiri ayindani ,alasithi nani chemmagillina
                            naa kanulanu thudachi 
      chanda mama thana odilo nidurommani jolapadi
      vennela varsham kuripinchagaa ...
      kalatha niduralo neevocchavani ulikkipadi
      anthalone neevu raaledani ,bhramenani
niraasagaa
      thelathela vaaruthundagaa ee jeevana 
                                    parugupandemlo
        ninnu marachi pogalanemo nani .............

bring me sunshine


mydays were bright and night sweet dreams
moments nurtured with lot of care and fun

my surroundings were pleasant
lingered with my joyous smiles

what happend to those days and nights
can anyone bring me back those moments

who are u to me, invaded my heart
with out any clue spoiled me and my joy

i lost my self completely in you 
now nothing is interested  and funny

always want to drown in your thoghts
its not my fault I lost my self

can you come and bring me those sunny days back...

one right thing one right moment one right person

i need a person who cares me a lot and
i need a person who has time to listen to me
i need a person who is capable of handling me
And has believe in me that i will never do wrong things
My every movement is perfctly planned and well judged
 
Inturn my love for him will never die thouh I die ..........
 
that much i can give him
 so i need a right thing to happen
 waiting for the right moment 
 and looking forward to meet the right person .... 

KNOW YOUR SELF


 
When do I realise nothing is in my hands
why shud i curse myself like, it's all
                                  because of me
tried whole heartedly till the end,
                                  wish i cud get it
why cann't I think its n't in my fate
no where its written whatever you wish,
                                     you shud get it
ofcourse i kept my heart and soul in it

Each and every moment I prayed god ...
if its there in my fate, give it to me
he knows whats best for me, what I deserve

everything is predetermined.........
all this world is under control of him,
not even a thing will happen against his wish,
why cann't my heart accept the truth.

its true that to get something we have to
                           lose some thing...
listen to the cry of your inner soul,
                       do n't be harsh on yourself...

KNOW YOUR INNSER HAPPINESS,
          DO ACCORDINGLY LATER IF YOU REPENT
                  ALSO MAY BE OUT OF YOUR CONTROL

Rich and poor

One day a father and his rich family took his young son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be.  They  spent a day and a night in the farm of a very poor family.  When they got back from their trip the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"

Very good, Dad!"

"Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked.

"Yeah!"  "And what did you learn?"

The son answered, "I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four.  We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden, they have a creek that has no end.  We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars.  Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon.

When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless.

His son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are!" Isn't it true that it all depends on the way you look at things?  If you have love, friends, family, health, good humor and a positive attitude toward life, you've got everything!

You can't buy any of these things.  You can have all the material possessions you can imagine, provisions for the future, etc., but if you are poor of spirit, you have nothing!


Keep in touch

                           Around the corner I have a friend,
                            In this great city that has no end,
                          Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
                          And before I know it, a year is gone.
                          And I never see my old friends face,
                          For life is a swift and terrible race,
                            He knows I like him just as well,
                          As in the days when I rang his bell.
                        And he rang mine but we were younger then,
                              And now we are busy, tired men.
                            Tired of playing a foolish game,
                              Tired of trying to make a name.
                          "Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
                          Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
                          But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
                        And distance between us grows and grows.
                            Around the corner, yet miles away,
                        "Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
                      And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
                          Around the corner, a vanished friend.

                          Remember to always say what you mean.
                              If you love someone, tell them.
                          Don't be afraid to express yourself.
                    Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
                            Because when you decide that it is
                          the right time it might be too late.

                                      Seize the day.
                                    Never have regrets.
                        And most importantly, stay close to your
                      friends and family, for they have helped make
                            you the person that you are today

so plz keep in touch who u like ..

Dream

Here i am again with one more broken dream
did i know when it started and when it got end
least i did is just stand out there,
to see the disaster, and to collect pieces
The hope that was lightened when i saw u
warmth feeling when i touched you ..,
the care i took to nurtured you..
you were like an oasis in my life
is it all in the game of yours - dream???
You have lost in such a way that
i could n't dare to dream again,
did i know early this  way you'll end
then i would have never dreamt
Before my eyes you melted like an ice 
you allured & tempetd me a lot,
i was running behind u like mad
and you left scar on my heart
saying you failed, u did n't acheive.
is it all in the name of yours - dream???

elaa elaa

elaa samadhana parachanu ee madinee , 
neevu levaneee, neevu ika ravanee ..
ee sathyannee nammalenee ee pichi manasuni...


ee savvadi vinipinchinaa nee adugula savvademonanee,
aathrangaa nee kai parugutheese ee manasuku...
ninnu choose kshanam kai parithapinche hrudayanaiki...
emani oodarachanu..emanee ooradainchanu ...

ee yada logalilo velige deepam neevanee ...
naa mounam loni aantharyam nee meeda premanee
naa vedana bharanni thelipe ee nitturpalaku
emani odarchanu elaa samudayinchanu ...

MRUTHYUVU

Endukano theliyadu? ee vela naa manasulo egisipadeudvegam
denikosamo ee avedana , edi thanadi kadanee  thelusu
andukana? leka naa kalala soudham koolipothondana?
Emo maree enduko ee artham leni thapana kanneru 
jeevithamlo thanakantoo niyamalu nibhandanalu vidhinchukoni


thananu thaanu o kota lo bhandhinchukunna o raju
ivanne thana venta ravanee preamalu bhandalu saswatham kavanee
eppudu enthavaraku jeevinchalo thana Chethilo ledanee
thelusukokundane thanuvu chaalisthe kadali poyaanu
inthekada naa jevitham kooda maree echatikee payanam
nenu, naa aham, keerthi, paruvu, prathista ,dabbu
ivevi saswatam kade poni naa anukunnavallu evaru chivari daka thodu rare

sreenivasa! naa manasara korukuntunnanu          
       ee khsanamlonaina maranam nannu dari cherithe chirunavvutho
       marananni aahvaninche mano sthairyanni naaku prasadinchu

DON'T QUIT



 
 
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will.
when the road you're trudging seems uphill,
when the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit -
rest if you must, but do n't you quit.
 
Life is strange with its twist and turns,
as every one of us some times learns,
and many a person turns about
when they might have won had they stuck it out.
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow -
you may succed with another go.
 
Often the goal is near than it seems
to a faint and faltering person;
when they might have captured the victor's cup;
and they learned too late when the night came down
how close they were to the golden crown.
 
Success is a failure turned inside out -
the silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
and you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems afar.
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
it's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...


Five (5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people. 


1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady. 

During my second month of college, our professor
gave us a pop quiz. I was a conscientious student 
and had breezed through the questions until I read
the last one:

"What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?"

Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the 
cleaning woman several times. She was tall, 
dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?

I handed in my paper, leaving the last question
blank. Just before class ended, one student a sked if
the last question would count toward our quiz grade. 

"Absolutely," said the professor. "In your careers, 
you will meet many people. All are significant. They
deserve your attention and care, even if all you do
is smile and say "hello." 

I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her
name was Dorothy. 
2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain

One night, at 11:30 p.m., an older African American
woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway
trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had
broken down and she desperately needed a ride. 
Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car. 
A young white man stopped to help her, generally
unheard of in those conflict-filled 60s.. The man
took her to safety, helped her get assistance and
put her into a taxicab.

She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his 
address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a 
knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a
giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A
special note was attached..

It read: 
"Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway 
the other night. The rain drenched not only my
clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along.
Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying 
husband's bedside just before he passed away... God 
bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving
others." 

Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole. 
3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve. 

In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less,
a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and
sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him. 

"How much is an ice cream sundae?" he asked. 

"Fifty cents," replied the waitress.

The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and 
studied the coins in it.

"Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?" he inquired.

By now more people were waiting for a table and the
waitress was growing impatient.

"Thirty-five cents," she brusquely replied.

The little b oy again counted his coins.

"I'll have the plain ice cream," he said. 

The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on
the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice
cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress 
came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the 
table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish,
were two nickels and five pennies.. 

You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had 
to have enough left to leave her a tip.



4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path. 

In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a
roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if
anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the
king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by
and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the
King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did 
anything about getting the stone out of the way. 

Then a peasant came along carrying a load of
vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the
peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the
stone to the s ide of the road. After much pushing 
and straining, he finally succeeded. After the
peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed
a purse lying in the road where the boulder had 
been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note
from the King indicating that the gold was for the 
person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The
peasant learned what many of us never understand!

Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition. 


Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a
hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who 
was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only 
chance of recovery appeared to be a blood
transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had
miraculously survived the same disease and had
developed the antibodies needed to combat the
illness. The doctor explained the situation to her 
little brother, and asked the little boy if he would 
be willing to give his blood to his sister.

I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a
deep breath and saying, "Yes I'll do it if it will 
save her." As the transfusion progressed, he lay in
bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did,
seeing the color returning to her cheek. Then his
face grew pale and his smile faded. 

He looked up at the doctor and asked with a 
trembling voice, "Will I start to die right away". 

Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the 
doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his
sister all of his blood in order to save her. 

FOOT PRINTS


one night I had dream I dreamed I was walking along beach with the god
and across the sky flashed scenes from my life
For each scene I noticed two sets of foot prints in
the sand, one belonged to me , the other to god.
When the last scene of my life flashed before us
I looked back at the foot prints of the sand
I noticed that many times along the path of my life
there was only one set of foot prints.
I also noticed that it happend at the very
lowest and saddest times in my life.
This really bothered me and I questioned god about it
"God , you said that once i decided to follow you ,you
would walk with me all the way , but i noticed that
during the most trouble some time in my life there
is only one set of foot prints. I do n't understand
why in times when Ineeded you most you would leave
me."
God replied ," My precious precious child ,Ilove you
and I would never never leave you during your times of
trials and suffering .
When you see only one set of foot prints, It was
then that I carried you

LOVE

 I once had a friend who grew to be very close to me. Once when 
we were sitting at the edge of a swimming pool, she filled the 
palm of her hand with a little water and held it before me, and 
said this: "You see this water carefully contained on my hand? It 
symbolises love." As long as you keep your hand caringly open and 
allow it to remain there, it will always be there. However, if you 
attempt to close your fingers around it and try to posses it, it 
will spill through the first cracks it finds. This is the greatest 
mistake that people do when they meet love... they try to posses 
it, they demand, they expect... and just like the water spilling 
out of your hand, Love will retreat from you. For love is meant to 
be free, you can not change its nature. If there are people you 
love, allow them to be free beings.

Give, and don't expect.

Advice, but don't order.

Ask, but never demand.

It might sound simple, but it is a lesson that may take a lifetime 
to truly practice. It is the secret to true love. To truly 
practice it, you must sincerely feel no expectations from those 
who you love, and yet an unconditional caring.

More than Paradise



 
Years ago i thought is my paradise very far away?
Or its something that would never come my way..
I flew through the clouds and stopped at a place
Wher an angel approach me and said this way..

"I will offer you paradise but its only a glance
If u like it then you should keep it in your heart.....
For ever and ever..ther's no turning back after you see the place..

I took a risk to follow his way and ended up in paradise
He told me he would take..
I was instantly lost in the beauty of this place,
The paradise i always thought that is so far away..
Such a reviewing experience so far i have gained..


I hav lived in the paradise for enough time to understand its way,
The angel said you are not alone here and said this way..

The other is not the love who will come with you
And not the enemy who will run away......
BUt its you the other is two in onewhom you can share
All my blues and troubles which can be passed away..
From the moment i stepped into this place..

Your friendship is more than words could say..
I tried to put it in the best way i can..
Your friendship is more than paradise itself
I am so happy that i took the right way
I will never ever look back ever again..
I wish my friend with all my heart until my last breath fades away
" I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS IN THE PARADIAE" . . .

"I wish you a very very happy happy birth day"



What do you be come when you grow up ?


 
Well , it stuck me like echo in my ears when my 3 year old son interrogated me ? oh did I grow up already, No ..not yet may be 15 ,20 years later still I have lots of time to learn explore analyze disect is correct word in my processor...
coming to my brain how that damn thing works still amazes me..
 
Recently I met an american mum who is trying to understand her teenage daugther's brain , she amused how come indians are obsessed with studies marks fail pass percentage highest degrees in families does it come naturally to you or your parents will insists you to study ... well in my case typically you could say my brain thing "hey set your self some goal , well to be a class topper you have to work hard , i know you are n't intelligent by birth,3 things you need to be a topper understanding memory practice... this involves lot of hardwork , concentration ,focus .. all these are really big difficult dictionaries in my dictionary, with 25% of intelligence, 25% of hardwork 25% of memory its not sum up 100% but still i managed to pass in school level 85% and reaming gihschool degree 70%.. thats enough for me for my life time achievement.
Here comes real challenge how could i teach my kids in my way , in their own way .. every one is different .. the environment where i grew up is entirely different from at current fast pace, i cann't apply same theory again and again .
 
 
What you need in life ? what's necessary in present world ? whats available ? how can i make my kids to utilize it? if i schedule some thing and make them more organized way , spoon feeding them taking them to kumon practicing with them is like i have been started all my life from kindergartener in US educationsystem, i do n't say whether indian education system is better tham american system , they are more obsessed with percentage marks , actually no body cares how much they could apply when it comes practical application in real life, well to live happily one must need exposure , risk taking, living independently with the basic amenieties is really important thats what american system is encouraging , but it is failing to teach kids focus ,continuing their goals by limiting them giving assistance after highschool , the degree programs  are really expensive , where as in india its affordable free any master professional arts sceicne subjects.